Friday, January 14, 2011

IT'S ALIIIIIIIIVE!!!!!: The Monster of my Heart

Now I know how Frankenstein must have felt.

I know what you're thinking... 'You're gone for 2 months and the 1st thing you say when you come back is THAT?' LoL. Just stay with me. It'll all come together at the end.

I know how Frankenstein must have felt. I, too, created a monster. I wasn't trying to, but I did. I'm not gonna bore yall with the details. Let me just say this:

1. Be careful about allowing someone to think they can enter and exit your life at will. Your life does not have revolving doors at the entrance. I'm not saying that you shouldn't give second chances. Hey...give as many chances as you want, but know that, at some point, you have to say "Either you're going to be here or you're not." You have to do that for you. Otherwise, you'll be stuck with a person that never feels the need to commit one way or another....... a monster.

2. Always put a voice to your feelings. Express feelings of insecurity, doubt, confusion just like you express feelings of love, concern, or satisfaction. You have to air those feelings out. If you don't, there's a good chance the object of those feelings won't know you feel that way. And if they don"t know you feel that way, then they don't know there are things that need to change in order for you to be happy. The last thing you wanna do is create a false sense of security. You'll end up stuck with a selfish person that can't take criticism...a monster.

3. If you create a monster, know that it WILL, eventually, kill you. It's a monster, after all. And that's what monsters do. As hurtful and crushing as that is to's the truth. And when it happens, you can't even be mad, because the reality is that you created it. And we KNOW when we've created a monster. Don't be in denial. Let it go before it kills you.

4. Never build your 'Happily Ever After' around a person. I know that sounds like common knowledge, but it's easy to do when you've been with a person for years upon years. People are not possessions. At any given moment, someone can decide to not be a part of your life anymore and there's nothing you can do about it. Build your happy ending around the promises of God. He KNOWS the plans he has for your life. He's not still trying to figure it out. And the best part of the whole thing is this: He has never, ever failed. He gets it right every time.

Some lessons are hard to learn. I can, honestly, say that these have been the hardest. But I learned them, and that's the important thing. I know I've been MIA for a while, but life has been kinda hard on the emotional side lately. Sometimes I have to take a step back and regroup. I took a hard a punch in September, another one in October, and then another one last month. It's enough to knock anyone off their block for minute. I'm back though! And I'm excited about new things happening for me, as a writer, this year. Details will be coming very soon!!! Thank you all for being patient with me. LET'S GET IT!!! :)


  1. I know all about that monster!! And it will kill you if you don't kill it first. Letting it go seems so hard until you do and then you ask yourself, "Why didn't I do that sooner?" (Sigh of relief) Good word!!

  2. When you were a kid and couldn't sleep at night if you recall I would ask were the "monsters" in the closet(mind,life ect.)having a party? There will always be "monsters" (those created by us or others),they will always have a party (with no concern as to whose expense),we just have to choose not to attend the party! GET IT Girl! Remember GOD is doing a NEW THING!

  3. @B: I know right! It's crazy how that works. I wasn't sure if I would ever take that sigh of relief, seeing as how I was forced into letting go. But now that I actually have...everyday is a sigh of relief. Some people say moving on is hard. I don't think it's hard. I think it requires commitment. It's not enough to choose to move on one day. You have to make that choice everyday and I'm committed. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time.

    @Momz:I definitely hear you! No more Monster's Balls for me. LoL